I find this so sad.

On the one hand for so many years I was right beside my wife for every one of those items on your list.

So there’s a part of me that thinks that yes, against the odds, there can be someone out there who ticks all the boxes.

But on the other… circumstances dictated that it became more of a one way street. Her disabilities meant I couldn’t indulge certain things. And then my gender transition meant she wouldn’t indulge certain things.

And now I find myself craving the lustful gaze and needful touch of another woman who wants all I am.

I guess the truth is that I was only all those things for my wife while I was living a lie. And that has to shake the foundation of any belief I have in ‘the One’.


Thanks Mona. 😭