You flatter me with the relatability of my piece then provide your own.
Your mention of Cyberpunk 2077 is telling. So very very many of us, especially in the last couple of generations have embraced gaming, both tabletop and video, as ways of expressing our true genders without risking wider exposure.
Indeed, perhaps unsurprisingly, since transition I find I play games less. Now, maybe this is due to my current circumstances, perhaps due to a radical change in lifestyle. Its certainly not that I consider gaming a ‘boy’ thing. But maybe I feel a little less need to live other lives when my own is so much more aligned with who I truly am.
There’s more for me to add on this aspect but it will require another article.
Finally… if I may… please, do yourself a favour, don’t come to terms with AGP as an understandable route to realising you’re trans. Many of us experiment with crossdressing and there can often be a sexual component, especially in adolescence. But I beg you, don’t confuse such meandering through gender and sexuality as being in any way akin to Blanchard’s clueless and offensive murmurings. AGP has been comprehensively rebuked and debunked academically. And my own lived experience and that of countless other trans women (cos let’s face it nothing is said about trans men typically) flies in the face of everything Blanchard skewed his ‘research’ towards.
The selection of his research cohort alone was as deeply problematic as Littman’s in her facile positing of ROGD.
Both ‘studies’ are so fundamentally flawed as to be worthless.
Don’t trouble yourself with them, nor with people who cite them.
You’re a woman. And you’re trans. In that order.
Much love and thanks for the in depth comment.